The morning of my wedding smelled like white lilies and old promises. I sat at the vanity in the bridal suite, the veil already heavy on my hair, and let myself believe, for the first time in three years, that the worst part of my life was behind me.
Sophie sat cross-legged on the carpet by my feet, swinging her white shoes and humming to her flower crown.
“Mommy, is it crooked?”
I knelt down and straightened the little ring of daisies on her curls.
“Why can’t I call him Daddy?”
“Perfect. Now remember what we practiced. What do you call the tall man in the gray suit?”
She rolled her eyes the way only a five-year-old can.
“Evan. Just Evan.”
“That’s right, baby.”
“Why can’t I call him Daddy? Lily at school calls her new one Daddy.”
I smoothed her hair and tried to keep my voice soft.
“Because you already had a Daddy. And no one gets to take his name. Not ever.”
His eyes flicked to a leather folder he’d set on the dresser.
She nodded like it was the most reasonable thing in the world, then went back to humming.
Evan walked in without knocking, the way grooms aren’t supposed to, and pressed a kiss to my forehead before I could scold him.
“You’re not supposed to see me yet.”
“I couldn’t wait,” he said, smiling that careful smile. “And how’s my favorite flower girl?”
Sophie didn’t look up.
“I’m okay, Evan.”
He laughed and squeezed my shoulder, but his eyes flicked to a leather folder he’d set on the dresser. His fingers tapped on it twice before he tucked it under his arm again.
A look passed between them.
“What’s in the folder?”
“Nothing, love. Boring paperwork from the venue.”
Peter knocked on the doorframe behind him, beaming, all big-brother energy in his charcoal tux.
“There’s my baby sister. You ready to do this thing?”
“I’m ready.”
He stepped in and hugged me tight, and over his shoulder I watched Evan watch him. A look passed between them, quick, almost playful, like a private joke I wasn’t in on.
He kissed my cheek and offered his arm, and I took it.
“What?”
“Nothing,” Peter said, pulling back. “I was just telling Evan this morning. Eight months ago, you couldn’t get out of bed. Look at you now.”
“You picked a good one for me, big brother.”
“I always do.”

